Assalamualaikum wbt & Hi, Silent Readers :)
It’s like I have feelings for you but i know that the feeling isn’t mutual.. in a way I know we are better off as friends but I just like you so much. But I have enough respect for you at the same time to let you be happy. By that I mean letting you be with whoever you choose with out being upset or angry. I wouldn’t want one of my friends to do me like that. Im not going to tell you “oh no don’t tell me who you like” or “dont talk to her” or anything that deals with that subject because I want you to be able to tell me anything. Its like I don’t want there to be anything subtle or subliminal between us two.. I want you to be able to keep it real with me as I will for you. idk if its a phase I’m going through and im just trying to get over chris or if its real emotions that I have.. but I don’t want to wrap you up in it either way. because it’s like your too sweet of a guy to get caught in my web… but I just cant stop…
Have you ever heard of that song “Silly” by Denise Williams? If so thats kinda how I feel about this situation. It’s weird because it’s like when I sat down one night and just re read all of that shit I wrote to you years ago and I started feeling less numbness and more affection and desiring sensations. Then idk I just found myself texting you everyday, and started feeling butterflies when I think of you (all of the time). It’s hard to explain because I don’t even really know. I’m going to stop here though because I think I’m getting too in depth with this.. you get me? and like I said before its like everything is against us being together.. & it hurts…. But I can handle just being friends I guess.
sincerly. Me.
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